Unwrapping the Christmas ornaments for our Christmas tree, I kept thinking, "Didn't I just do this?" If pregnancy was an eternity, the months of having a baby have been in fast forward. Life thinks it's smarter than me by racing faster than I can keep up with, but I am on to it . I am on to how fast the first months of our son's life have gone. I am on to how fast his first Christmas is approaching. I am on to the fact that my little baby is slipping into toddler hood day-by-day. I am on to it. In a world full of fast and now, I remind myself to stop. In a season normally packed full of events and cheer and business, I take deep breaths and remind myself that my hope and joy aren't quite yet fulfilled. In a time in life when part of us honestly can't wait to get the first set of holidays without a loved one behind us, I am trying to find a way to enjoy them, too. When I put Joe down for a nap today, he turned into me as he fel...