Unwrapping the Christmas ornaments for our Christmas tree, I kept thinking, "Didn't I just do this?"    If pregnancy was an eternity, the months of having a baby have been in fast forward.     Life thinks it's smarter than me by racing faster than I can keep up with, but  I am on to it .     I am on to how fast the first months of our son's life have gone.   I am on to how fast his first Christmas is approaching.   I am on to the fact that my little baby is slipping into toddler hood day-by-day.   I am on to it.     In a world full of fast and now, I remind myself to stop.   In a season normally packed full of events and cheer and business, I take deep breaths and remind myself that my hope and joy aren't quite yet fulfilled.   In a time in life when part of us honestly can't wait to get the first set of holidays without a loved one behind us, I am trying to find a way to enjoy them, too.     When I put Joe down for a nap today, he turned into me as he fel...