Friday, October 23, 2015

a note about the bold

Someone recently told me, "If you struggle with boldness, there is no hope for any of us." to which someone else said, "You are probably the boldest person I've ever met."

This is not a blog about me, though.

This is a post about becoming the boldest person you've ever met, and how I am just a normal girl from Wisconsin.

I joke the greatest disservice my parents did to me growing up was to forgetting to tell me there are limits to what I can do. Now, don't get me wrong - my parents were not supporters of the "you can be anything you want to be in life" mantra. I suck at lots of things, and it was pretty evident to them and to me that if I had tried to pursue after any of them, it was not going to go well for me. However, as far as things I had aptitude for and interest in, there was no limit.

Enter YWAM. End game.

Friends, I am not even kidding here, but if you think for two seconds YWAM leaves you when you leave YWAM, it's not true. Like a dormant disease, it will stick around in your blood stream and slowly take over, pollute, and seek to eat away your worldview and life as you know it until you come to grips with the fact that your life is worthless and dead if you aren't doing what you are supposed to be doing.

What does this have to do with boldness?
YWAM teaches you a few things. One is that you don't have to be particularly qualified to do a task. You just have to love Jesus. It also teaches you that no task isn't your job, so just go ahead and do it.

YWAM gives you the audacity to start being bold in things that you seemingly have no business being bold about. YWAM taught me the boldness in willingness, not in qualification.

Bob Goff says love is it's own calling card, and that resonates so deeply with me. I don't have to worry about being qualified/doing it exactly right because that's not my job. I just have to love well, and that message will end up speaking back to the one true Love of all - God, who, as the Bible says, is Love.

When I heard about the Dignity Project, I didn't wait. I started sewing and asking friends to sew. At this point, dozens of you have gotten involved and I am overwhelmed, grateful, and excited to serve the women in Uganda.

When MOPs needed a co-coordinator, I didn't overthink the whole "I haven't even gone through an entire years of MOPs myself" thing. I just "yes", because there was a need. Guys, I am NOT qualified to co-coordinate MOPs and have zero clue about what I am doing. But I'm doing it.

When a friend told me they need someone to organize food for the homeless one time a month for 100+ people, I reached out to another friend and said, "Will you do this with me?". We are NOT expert homeless-feeders. Just two women who are willing to make sandwiches (which, btw, I got TONS of assembly line sandwich making experience in YWAM, so I'm feeling pretty good about that). It's going to require a sacrifice of other uses of our time, but it's probably what we need to be doing.

I could give more examples, but again, this isn't about me. It's about saying "yes" and trusting God to do the rest. And it doesn't have to be crazy. You can love your kids well, treat your co-workers kindly, work in your own sphere of influence. It can be small, like we are asking for less Christmas gifts and more donations to Samaritan's Purse who are working with Syrian refugees. But say yes, be bold, and then the next thing you know, you are a bold person.

"Audaces fortuna iuvat" (latin)- Fortune favors the bold.

Monday, October 12, 2015

challenge update

So, we finished phase one of the challenge! How's it going?

-Shakes: I really struggled to like the shakes. Turns out, it just needed unsweetened, vanilla almond milk. Hardly adds anything nutrition wise but way improves the taste. Since the challenge pack only comes with 14 shakes, I went ahead and ordered more in the chocolate mocha. Yum! The chocolate was good, too, but I liked the mocha better!

-Energy: Before I started the challenge, I said that if I wasn't feeling better in one week, I was going to call my primary doctor and have a check up and get a blood panel drawn. I was tired, struggling to sleep, and just not feeling great. The first 2 days of the challenge I did not feel better. By the 4th day, I felt totally different. I had energy, I could think clearly, I slept better. I know good food is good medicine... some times we just need help hitting that reset button!

-Appetite: I was hungry the first 2 days. I haven't been hungry since day 2. In fact, I have been making my dinner smaller and smaller. I am just not hungry. That sounds insane. I am always hungry. I'm sure it helps that my food options do not include cookies or ice cream. I feel like I could *probably* be hungry for those things. But after my protein and vegetable in the evening, I am good.

-Supplements: we added in the nutrition supplement system for the second phase of the cleanse. Most of it is ok...  one of the four packets definitely makes me feel "off", but I am going to give it a few more days. I am pretty sensitive to most medicines and supplements, so it definitely can take me a while to tolerate something.

-Diet coke / coffee: I just miss drinking it. I don't *need* it, though. Spark has been hugely helpful, and I'm sure it's better for you than Diet Coke! In fact, usually I am racing for that second Diet Coke after lunch, which has now been replaced with Spark... and yesterday I totally forgot to drink it. Which means I felt fine.

-Exercise: I've been keeping my activity level up as much as I can, but I did something to my left shoulder and need to have it adjusted before I can keep going strong... so it's going to be cardio only until Friday. Not ideal, but just life.

-Support: the ladies and coach doing the challenge with me are awesome and hilarious. It definitely helps!

-Weight loss: Isn't this the only one that matters? Ha! I've lost 4% of my body weight since starting, which bumped me down to the lower middle number on the scale! A middle number I haven't seen since before I was pregnant. YES! So good and definitely motivating! (If you don't know what I mean, I will give an example that is not my actual weight. Let's say you were in the 190's - the next lower middle number is the 180's. Make sense?) It feels good to bust through a barrier I have struggled with and still to have 2 weeks left on the challenge.

-Hard parts: When I want non-challenge approved food. But that's the whole point, right? Reset to a healthy diet. Also, the packets for phase 2 have been a bit hard to remember, because you have to take them before you eat, which means remembering to bring them with you/take them before the meal. I think the more I do it the easier it'll be. Dinner is also hard, because I have to figure out what both Robert and I can eat that we both like, and that, my friends, is a Venn diagram with no overlap.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

24 day challenge.

So, I agreed to do an Advocare 24 Day Challenge because I really care about my health, want to be intentional with my eating, and struggle to find the time to eat well as a stay at home mom.

That is all a lie. I agreed to do it because I want to wear my pre-pregnancy jeans this fall.

Either way, I am motivated.... and I promised to blog about it, so here I am.

Yesterday was the day of all meal prep. I made zucchini noodles, chicken fajita bowls, and egg and veggie "muffins". I used the zucchini noodles today for some fake Italian for lunch, and I was surprised by how much I liked it.

This morning started off with Day 1 of the challenge. Since I am a type A person to the core, I love the packets of supplements and check list. I get to CHECK it off? Done.

In the kit is a seemingly innocent box labeled "fiber drink". Since it was on the check list, I dutifully drank it this morning. It was not my favorite experience, but I got it down. I may put in a small splash of orange juice in it tomorrow to cut the gag factor.

I drank an Advocare meal replacement shake for breakfast. It was okay. It tasted a little "off" to me - but that could be that it's just a new protein shake. I have found some good recipes online to help the shake a little... and really, most protein shakes need some doctoring if they don't have a bunch of sugar in them. It still tasted better than Shakeology. #youcannotpaymetodrinkthatstuff

How am I feeling? Pretty good. Things got really shaky at 12:00 when I could not have a Diet Coke. And by shaky I mean I considered taking my own life, but I powered through. I didn't blink when they told me no coffee, I felt whiny about no chocolate, but the no Diet Coke thing? #thestruggleisreal

I did get really hungry after breakfast. I went from totally fine to "wow I need to eat or I am going to pass out". Yes, I was drinking plenty of water! Luckily, I had Women's Bible study, and knowing all the good treats there, I had packed some peanut butter + apples in case I was tempted. That turned out to be a good idea.

Since I have Spark (#lifesaver), I have no headaches. But I really drink mostly decaf coffee, so that's not too surprising. I am slightly hungry but not starving by any means, and the check list says I get another snack soon, so I'm sure I will be fine. The best news is that today I probably have eaten 100% healthier than I normally would have, and that's a big win.

I will keep you updated on how it goes! I promised I would post, but I also promised I would be honest, so you can expect more Diet Coke whining ahead. I'm also hoping to have some other people share their challenge experiences, so we may have some other perspectives, too! #TeamSassy